I've been with this guy since April 10th, 2009...he's originally a sweetheart, passionate, loving, caring and all around a good guy...then when his situation and mood goes south- so do we.
I miss him- without him it's like I'm missing a major part of me. I try blocking the feelings behind a wall of it's own-- then the dam just spills over and I'm one big emotional mess.
...normally I find men easily replaceable but this is new to me.
No one can replace him. I'm pretty much ruined- 'cuz if I don't get back with him, I'll be just like my mother. She couldn't have her childhood sweetheart, she ran off to Cali. Found my dad, had us kids- all the while she was so very unhappy causing the rest of us to be just as miserable as she.
THEN 30 something years later, she divorces my dad and gets with her childhood sweety.
I can safely say that some other guy is doomed to be miserable if I don't get back with Mr. E.
Note: My childhood/teenage sweetheart is gay, so me getting with him in *THAT* way is not a futuristic option.
